I got in to Brenau about 2 weeks ago. I'm not making any decisions until I visit the campus next month. I'm slowly hating Iowa City more and more, and the majority of people around me. I'm not sure if my job and PbR are enough to keep me here. There's so much that's drawing me to Georgia. Last night Darin's mom called and gave a heartbreaking speech about how she wants us to stay close, but understands that there aren't exactly the best opportunities in Iowa. I still haven't even told my grandparents that I applied or toying with the idea of leaving. I have a feeling my grandma is going to disown me when I do tell her. I don't really see any of my WDM friends so that's not what's keeping me here. I have a feeling I'm going to leave, I'm excited and nervous. I told Darin that I'm just going to flip a coin. He told me that's a good idea, because even if it lands on the side that you think you want, you're going to flip again until you land on the side that you actually want.
Over labor day I had to go home and pack up my dad's house. It was hard and I was crying all of Friday night. Our whole house had to be repainted, and I've seen pictures on Iowarealty, but I refuse to go back in the house. My mom is going to go over and get the last of my things. We ended up throwing so many things away, that we just couldn't justify taking with us. Sure some of the things I have in boxes probably won't see daylight again for 10 years, but the fact that I know that it's there somewhere and I can go back to it is more than enough for me. Obviously my dad and I want the house to sell quickly, but for different reasons. His is money, mine is to just get it over with like a band-aid. Espresso is living with Darin and I, and so we'll see how Darin's allergies take to her over the winter once everything is all shut up. Hope to see some of you guys over breaks, hope all is well.
~Until Then
~Until Then