I guess German really is the angry language.

Ich liebe dich.

That's My Dad Outside The Car!!

So I've been listening to Nickleback's C.D. All the Right Reasons for about 4 hours or so, obsessed, not quite. It's just good music and the songs are varied in emotions. I would suggest listening to it. Life has been mellowing out lately. I drove around today for a few hours in the nice weather listening to Lazer and I wasn't really singing, I wasn't really thinking. I was just chillin and enjoying the moment. Yea cheesy, but it's not your boat now is it? But I dunno, you might not believe me when I say I wasn't thinking about anything. But I wasn't. Not about family, friends, school, or what I had to eat for breakfast. I was just existing and watching everything go by. It was like I was staring into space while driving at the same time. But today was a good day, so that's all that matters right?
~Until Then

Do I Really Need To Say Anything?

VALLEY KICKS ASS! END OF STORY!!
~Until Then

Bump Up In Status

Yes after the Sweatheart show last nite, I learned that I have been moved from Sound Director to Ass. Man. It's freakin amazing!!! I will still be doing sound for the spring show, but I am training my new apprentice Emily Adams. She'll be a good one, so don't worry. But sadly it will break the tradition that the Sound people have been next to deaf. Wait what did you say? Anyways, the show was a bitch. I can't stand the Show Choir people. Their behavior and performance on Tuesday was unnaceptable and so I had a little "chat" with them after their rehersal last nite before the show. Yea, that didn't go over to well with the BIG egos in s.c. So if you want to call me a bitch, tell it to my face, not my back.
~Until Then

Sweetheart Show!

Ugh that damn thing is driving me crazy! V doesn't know wtf she's talking about and the whiny little Jazz kids and bitching us out left and right. And the show choir...good lord, they just don't listen. It doesn't help that Liz put me as Stage Manager. Ugh Ugh Ugh. I want to kill every choir kid at Valley!! Oh and then you have the fucking soloists who think that they're just too good and can do whatever the hell they want. LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING: YOU PISS OF THE TECHIES AND YOU WILL NOT HAVE A SHOW!! YES WE MAY BE ON THE BOTTOM OF THE SOCIAL STATUS LADDER, BUT WITH OUT US YOU WILL NOT I REPEAT YOU WILL NOT HAVE A SHOW! TREAT US WITH SOME RESPECT AND WE'LL TRY TO DO THE SAME!!
~Until Then

Valentines Dance!!! Woo Hoo!

Probably two of the hottest people I've ever seen in my whole life! Yea so the dance was last nite, obviously. I went with Elena and Alex. Yea had a pretty rockin time. Actually found a date at the dance so it made it even better. For those of you who didn't go, it was 100 times better than Homecoming. It didn't feel like a gym in pretty clothes. You could actually enjoy yourself and have fun with your date. Ran into Liz Bloomburg at the dance and hung out with her most of the nite. I LOVE LIZ!!! Yea all three of us (Liz, Elena, and Myself) all had blue dresses. That is the random fact of the day. Thank you and goodnite.

~Until Then

I love mime techies!

I won a dollar. Don't ask how.
~Until Then

I'm Psyched About My Psych Appointment.

Yea so I had my second Psych appointment today and basically it was just me telling her
1) How meatloaf lady got her name
2) How the show choir people take techies for granted
3) That I hate Mikels for the fact that she pointed out that my mother and I are very much alike
4) Stating the fact that I am colorblind
5) Really dumb stories from my childhood like how I stuck toothpaste up my nose when I was 5.
She said that I might only have to come back for like 2 or 3 more. But the final word is up to my dad and the school. So they'll probably keep me there for like 3 years. Oh well, Carla is a nice lady to talk to so, meh whatever. If it gets me out of STC, I'm game.

On another note, out of the 8 classes that I have, 5 of them had subs. German was Mr. Evil Man Krechner- something or other. Choir and STC was Vanderpoole, Ihnen and Mr. Smith who is as tall as a sack of potatoes, and the finally for Drama and Tech Teathre was Mrs. Mitchell. A very nice old lady who doesn't know anything about Mime. Haha, it was funny.
~Until Then

Yea, Okay.

So I guess, I just got some sense slapped into me. And I think that you're gonna see some changes over the next few months. Okay so you're probably thinking "Yea this is just some bullshit that she's feeding us to make us 'think' that she's okay. But she's gonna go and pull some big stunt that will land her back in the spotlight cause she's some attention starved bitch. So fuck her." Yea okay, I deserve everybit of that. I'm not gonna lie. My behavior since the beginning of this school year has been completely unnacceptable, I'm not going to deny that either. I'm going to counseling tomorrow to try to figure out what the heck is going on in my head. My art is not depressing, it's self therapy and I'll eventually post pictures of them as they get finished. So yea. If this changes your mind about me, so be it. There is nothing that I can do about that. I'm am sorry. For real this time. No finger crosses, no take-backs. Honest truth. I knew I had this coming to me and I wish it had hit me earlier. God. I have A LOT of self repair to do before the old me comes back. But I think all of you will be at ease around me, if that means anything. Maybe this is all one big nightmare that I haven't woken up from, but I highly doubt it. So okay, I'm going to bed, but this time on the right side of the bed.
~Until Then

ALL STATE HERE I COME!!! YEA SOLO MIME AND IMPROV!!!!!!!!
~UNTIL THEN!!!

CONGRATS TO ALL!!!!Okay so State really wore me down. I came home and crashed and woke up maybe 30min. ago. So yea most of Valley got 1's across the board. I was so excited when I got them for my mime skit!! There were A TON of great performances and it was so much fun to see them all. My only complaint, don't have improv in the gym. I ruined my voice by projecting at the top of my lungs just so I could be heard over the fan in the backround. It also seemed to take forever for the ratings to go up, gah and then it was a mass hysteria to get to the window. But now the next thing will be the long wait for the All- State nominations, HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL THERE!! Oh BTW...I completely killed my back when I over did my fight fall while practicing up stairs. I am in pain...ow ow ow ow!! Don't ever fall 3 feet onto tile floor with both feet in the air, it hurts!
~Until Then